:)

I had an AWFUL night of sleeplessness mixed with terrible dreams when I did doze off.  :(  boo.
But then I woke up at the same time as my beautiful son, and he put his little hands on my face and told me stories.  I love love love being a momma!  :)

Sometimes...

Sometimes at night, when putting you to bed, 

I'll linger for a while in our chair, just to hold you in my arms...a little longer.  

I love you, son...

How it all came down

Some people have been asking me about Michael's birth - how it went, what it was like, you know...they want details.  Be aware that this is going to be a little....descriptive.
Most of you know that getting pregnant in the first place was something of a miracle for us.  I have something called PCOS, and because of the condition of my ovaries, I don't ovulate on my own.  But with much advice and help, we were able to conceive.  :)

...

Michael never decided it was time for him to come out.  He wasn't terribly overdue, but a week overdue and doc said it was time to induce.  We went in early in the morning and they administered the pitocin.  The doc came in and broke my water and I started having heavy contractions.  I dilated very fast, and finally decided I wanted that epidural they kept offering me.  The doc administered that, and then they checked me - it was time to push!  Whoa - the moment was here - so fast and it was already upon us - soon we would be holding our little bundle of joy!  We were eager to meet the little baby that had already been tugging on our heartstrings and keeping us entertained... 

But wait. 

And push.  

And wait.

And push.  

Little baby was stuck.  And facing the wrong way.  And going into distress.  And there was maconium.  All this took 6 hours of pushing to unfold.  They tried to turn him but no dice...stubborn little lad...  

The doc came in and told us we had a choice to make - baby had to come out now.  We could do an emergency c-section or we could try with the forceps and see if we could get baby out through the birth canal.  Sean and I stared at each other and prayed.  We came to the decision to try forceps first, then c-section if that didn't work.  

I felt like my insides were being ripped out of me.  Despite the fact that they had started the epidural again and I couldn't feel my legs, I could feel what was going on inside my body.  We heard a crunchcrunchcrunch and realized the doctor was cutting.  Making room.  Had to get baby out.  

FINALLY the head and shoulders came through and it was like this little baby just fell the rest of the way out.  

We have a boy!  

Why wasn't he crying?  The doc quickly passed him to a respiratory specialist who cleared his lungs and got him breathing...  And that little cry was the BEST sound in the world!  

TOTALLY Worth the Wait

No, no, no, not my blog (although I am sorry for the wait...)  THIS little guy has been totally worth the wait, the fight, the prayers, everything. 

*Totally* worth the wait...

Today we added two feet to our family...  :)

Michael Alan Aagaard was born to us on May 11, 2010 at 6:51 pm Alaska time.  He put up a big fight to get out, and finally joined us here on the outside!  :)

"Wait for the Lord;
be strong & take heart

& wait for the Lord."
                            Psalm 27:14

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May the fourth be with you...

Baby is due today!  ;D  I have no idea if that means that baby is coming today, but this is our due date...  :)
How incredible, since Sean is by far the biggest Star Wars fan/geek I have ever known.  ;)  I love my husband!  And if our little one decides to wait a little longer, we still have a really cool due date...and a geeky start for baby!  :)  heehee....
Enjoy your day everyone, and May the fourth be with you!  ;D

A man after God's own heart...

Clinton Coker left this life on April 21, 2010...

He taught me so many things, so many things I can't even think of them all. He taught me to put God first. He taught me to hold my tongue (still working on that one...). He taught me the right way to say Louis Armstrong's name when I was just a kid, and I will never forget hearing about his appreciation for Louis' music, and I have yet to hear a Louis Armstrong tune since that conversation where Papa does not dominate my thoughts. He taught me that it's better to live right than to live rich. He taught me that no matter how much distance can separate people, you can still be close at heart.

I wish I had taken more time to let him know how much he meant to me. I know where he is, because of his unbending faith, and I know I'll see him again - and that is a comforting thought.

All my life I have never known a stronger, kinder, sweeter, truer soul than he...I will truly miss you Papa....

"...The journey doesn't end here...

Death is just another path, one that we all must take.

The grey rain curtain of this world pulls back,

and all turns to silver glass...and then you see it. White shores...and beyond -

a far green country into a swift sunrise."