Finding my Mary

Some of you may have heard me comment on the fact that I need to find my inner Mary.  So often in life I get caught up in the tasks at hand that I fail to stop and just listen.  Observe.  Enjoy.  My Martha takes over.  When I meet my Maker, He's not going to care how many dishes I did or that my house was spotless more often than not (which it is, save for the small scattering of toys left stranded by a toddler in full motion - which I *LOVE*), His focus is going to be on whether or not I connected with this life and lived it to the fullest for His glory.

I am so thankful that I have a husband that reminds me of that.  We are so opposite in some respects but it's so good for me, to hear that it's okay to just leave things for a moment and enjoy the people in your life instead of obsessing over whether or not that pan in the sink is done soaking quite yet (which it's not)...

I am so thankful that this wonderful husband is also so good with our son, and takes his time, not wrapped up in the task itself, but enjoying the moments and the learning going on.  THIS has helped me so much to just slow down and enjoy all the wonderful blessings in my life - having Michael and being with Sean.  My son will only be learning things for the first time ONE TIME.  He's not going to stop growing into the boy, then teen, then young man, then man we're shaping him to be, and I don't want to miss a bit of that.

It's good to serve those around you.  In fact, that's my primary love language - acts of service.  I want to teach Michael that having a servant's heart is so valuable.  But it's also good to just be together (quality time was a CLOSE second).  Relationships are also so valuable and I find myself neglecting my relationships for the tasks I have at hand.  And for that, I am sorry...

Now, I know some of you will tell me that tasks do, in fact, have to be completed and that it's good for Michael to see some responsibility played out.  THAT'S not what I'm talking about.  I'm talking about not getting so wrapped up in the little, insignificant don't-matter tasks that I miss out on a few someones who really want to just bond.  I'm talking about letting go of the little things, so that I don't miss out on the big things in life...  Don't sweat the small stuff, right?  I'm workin' on it, I'm workin' on it...

³⁸ Now it happened as they went that He entered a certain village; and a certain woman named Martha welcomed Him into her house. ³⁹ And she had a sister called Mary, who also sat at Jesus’ feet and heard His word. ⁴⁰ But Martha was distracted with much serving, and she approached Him and said, “Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help me.” 

⁴¹ And Jesus answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. ⁴² But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.”

Luke 10:38-42